Heart broken with a Spash of Joy

At 37 years old I am starting to believe that marriage is not real. There is no real man of God out there, and if there was, men of God dont want to marry- they just want to marry God, and that gives women of God no man to marry, unless we marry pigs or wolves (trashy/evil men). Forget that! Its ok, best to be single than to marry a wicked man, since that is the only choice i have. So apart from that lonely wicked drama, Elohim is still good to me. He gave me a business, a nice house, i have traveled the world, He protects me and my health, He helps me financially, and He also gave me a new name! He also gave me my pet Matok. Matok is a skinny pig (bald guinea pig). He is my joy. He is so calm and loving. Soon my children's book about Matok will be out. Praise Elohim! AMEIN!